Lost Forever…

Date : Sunday, August 31, 2008

Ich Bin Da...

I miss my 1D01 girls...
I miss my bitches...
I miss school (sort of)...
I miss my 4e4 '07...
I miss my secondary school teachers...
I miss my childcare kids...
I miss the simpler times...
I miss the days before 08.08.08 happened...
I miss a lot of things...

That's all...just wanted to share. ;)

*Congratulations for receiving that certificate, I knew you'd win it; you really deserved to get the award, and I'm so proud of you. Here's all the best to you...Smiles.*

Ladbrooke || 7:17 PM

Date : Friday, August 29, 2008

Out Of Titles...LOL!

So there will be a teachers' day celebration tomorrow in Siglap and weird that I won't be going. Now, now, it's not that I have forgotten them or I don't care about them, it's just that I am avoiding someone who, I am very sure, will be there. So yeah, just wanna avoid having history (which was not so long ago actually) repeat itself. Have to sacrifice just to stay on the safe side. ;) No more grudges, really, it's just I know the same thing will happen again and who will suffer? Both of us, but mostly me...I guess the other person involved suffers too. :/ Cripes, whatever la the hell with it.

Well, I know it's on Monday but Happy Teachers' Day in advance to all the teachers of the world and of course to all early childhood people who are really teachers-in-training!!! ;))

Sighs, I wish I could see my ex-teachers though... :( Oh well, I made the choice not to go so no one to blame but me, myself and I (maybe that person too la). Hehs...

*Yeah, I'm staying away from you for good. It's my present to you for teachers' day, I hope you're happy now. Oh, and yeah, I send my gift with all the love in my heart. And I know I sound sarcastic, but I actually mean it. Sighs, if only you could read this...*

Ladbrooke || 2:38 AM

Date : Monday, August 25, 2008

Doll Domination Delayed...

Song from Doll Domination. And cripes, the release date of the album has been delayed to September 23 instead of September 15. :( Gahhh, have to wait even longer. Oh well, it's gonna be worth it anyway. Hehe...

Out of This Club by Pussycat Dolls (feat. R. Kelly)

ROB
Pussycats

chorus :
Baby won't you take me out of this club
I wanna be with you
Baby let me take you out of this club
I make your dreams come true
Baby won't you take me out of this club
I wanna be with you

I smiled enough
I flirted enough
I posed enough
Got freaky enough

Took pictures enough
Conversated enough
I sipped enough
I got enough

I see a cute boy chilling in some jeans and Tims
I think i like him and i just might leave this club with him
And his swagger tight, i'm feeling the tattoos on him
Make me wanna, wanna, wanna got with him

VIP like "Hey"
Dissing with my girls like "Hey"
Then i call him off to meet me
I couldnt resist, so sexy

DJ get on the mic
And make them ... from the front to the rear
Yall ain't gotta go home
but you gotta get the hell up outta here

[chorus]

I drank enough
I danced enough
I partied enough
I sweated enough

I stuttered enough
I flossed enough
I snapped enough
Two step enough

Now I want this awesome woman up in this club
And i like her and I wanna leave this club with her
Ever since the mama broke it down to the floor
I say she ready she ready she ready to go, to go

Then i got behind her like "hey"
She pushed it on me like "hey"
And she ain't scared to get dirty
Even though she's so pretty purdy

DJ get on the mic
And give us head from the front to the rear
Yall ain't gotta go home
but you gotta get the hell up outta here

[chorus]

ROB
Pussycats

Ladbrooke || 7:21 PM

Date : Sunday, August 24, 2008

Invitation.

I was invited to the Teachers' Day lunch of my childcare centre!!! I think that's so cool, but I doubt I'll go. Don't ask why... Anyway, so I told my mentor that I won't be able to make it and she said that's okay and she wished me a Happy Teachers' Day...LOL! How weird, but totally awesome. I got a teachers' day wish!!! HAHAHAHA... Gotta get used to that. lol.

Hmm, should I get gifts for my secondary school teachers? It'll be weird though, I'm not even going back to school on Friday. Nyehhh, I think I won't la. I'm broke anyway. LOL! I mean, come on, even last year I didn't give any teacher any present!!! Hehs...

Ladbrooke || 10:01 PM

Date : Friday, August 22, 2008

HOHUMMM...

Here I am at McCafe, bored. Friends are studying, well, sort of... The place is so crowded suddenly. Must be cos of exam period. Thank God ours ended already. Heh heh...

I feel like drinking a thick espresso right now but can't spend my money yet. Scared later not enough for dinner. Sighs, see I'm so poor now la. I'm broke! Broke as a...err, gah, can't think of any similes right now. I need a job...but knowing me, I'll just quit after a day or something. >.<" If anyone got lobang, let me know ok?? *Had a dream about Olivia Wilde twice in a row...0_o... And it's all so weird. She was a teacher at Siglap on d first night, and she actually wore her white doctor's robe for it. LOL. And the second night she was this superspy or something. Stupid right???? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH*

Ladbrooke || 4:29 PM

Date : Tuesday, August 19, 2008

It's Over? Omg, It's Overrrrr...

For now at least... But next semester is next semester's problem. Not gonna think about it now!! Anyway, only this morning had it sunk in that holidays are here! Ohhh, Emmmm, Geeeeee. Okay, sounds so bimbotic. :-P I was just helping my brother with his show and tell about animals in the garden and I was in such a cheery mood making a plasticine lizard in the morning?!!? Only explanation? Holiday Fever, baby! ;)

Anyway, yesterday after the paper we headed to Lot 1 to have Dinah's 7-day belated birthday treat at Siam Kitchen. The tom yam was goooooood...mmmmm. And we had soooo much fun! They camwhored, forcing me to join in once in a while and they even tried to take an individual photo of me! Ha! so not gonna happen, I've been practising the "when-the-paparazzi-gets-in-your-face" pose all my life. (practising when I'm famous one day..cheyyyy) When Dinah passes me d pics, I'll post some here, or maybe I won't. Shrugs. Depends on my lazy meter...hehs.

Okay, gonna go watch my The O.C now... :)))

Ladbrooke || 11:42 AM

Date : Saturday, August 16, 2008

I Can Almost Smell It! The Smell Of.....Freedom!!

Just one more paper and then we're all free women!!! I can't wait to get monday's paper over and done with, oh my god!!! Sighs, but still gotta study study study during the weekends. Bahhh...

Anyway, I came back from McCafe and was so excited to touch my laptop again after a whole day, which seemed like an eternity really!!! (yes, I'm that dependent on Alex even though I don't have much to do on her.) &&&&, after I barely managed to check my Facebook (for someone's reply) this blue screen just appeared! OMGosh... I freaked out la. Alex restarted and the screen appeared again, and then she repeated this about 3 times! I almost died from a heart attack I tell you! Seriously I was panicking like MADDDD... So I took d backup CD and dah dah dah, now she's fine already. Phew! She took 10 years of my life, seriously...>.<"

Ladbrooke || 1:40 AM

Date : Monday, August 11, 2008

Lyrics of My Life...(as of 08.08.08)

1) How Many Times, How Many Lies? by Pussycat Dolls
- How many times, were you here deceiving, while I was here believing in you? I should put the blame on myself.-

2) Goodbye by Secondhand Serenade
- Everything we've been through, and everything about you seemed to be a lie; a guiltless twisted lie that made me learn to hate you, or hate myself for letting it pass by. All I had to say is goodbye, we're better off this way. We're better off this way.-

3) Pieces by Rascal Flatts
- And I don't want to see you anymore, I'm just not that strong. I love it when you're here, but I'm better when you're gone. I'm certain that I've given, and oh how you can take. There's no use in you looking, there's nothing left for you to break. Baby, please release me. Let my heart rest in pieces.-

4) Why by Secondhand Serenade
- Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe. Why do you do this to me???-

5) Everytime by Britney Spears
- At night I pray, that soon your face will fade away...-

And a quote I heard from Hitch yesterday, kinda sad...and very true if you imagine how it would feel to be in the shoes of Albert, the guy who said it:

"You don't know how it feels to get up every morning knowing that the love of your life is waking up next to the wrong man and yet at the same time you want her to be happy even though you know it's never going to be with you..." :((

Sorry for the melancholy, I just tend to think a lot these days. Hmm, oh well...I'd better get to studying and stop thinking too much about other stuff. Channel all my bitterness and sadness to something constructive...:P

Ladbrooke || 8:28 PM

Date : Saturday, August 9, 2008

...Hell Hath No Fury Like A Woman Scorned...

I'm still damn pissed off with you. I hate what you did, and I can never forgive you for it. I won't ever forget. And I swear I never in my life want to see you ever again. I don't hate you, I really don't...I just hate how you could have the heart to do that to me. What did I ever do to you? Am I that horrible a person for you to bear to do that to me? Do you hate me that much? I won't be surprised if you do the same thing again; you're always putting on that stupid mask of yours... URGH! Sometimes I wish I could just scream in your face and just blearghsssss... Gahhhh...

*breathes in, breathes out*

Sorry for the vent, I just had to let it out on BOTH my blogs! Can't hold it in any longer...:-/

Ladbrooke || 1:06 AM

Date : Friday, August 8, 2008

Siglap Sports Day.

We weren't allowed in the whole time and had to stand outside the gates like some idiotic prisoners. That bloody botak and The Thing (as teacher's call him) were being so unreasonable! When we asked why ex-siglapians are not allowed in, he said, "because the rule says so." See!!! They can't even justify the rule! Crap, crap, crap...

When the event ended and they opened the gates, we went in to see the teachers. YAY! I missed all of them so much laaaaaa... Miss Ng and Mr Joe were accompanying us most of the time at the gates, and Mr Joe told us funny stories about our OM, Miss Ng complained about the pricing of the food and drinks. Errr, anyway, we spoke to Mdm Sahrul, Mdm Suriati, Miss Chin, Miss Fong, Mrs Goh and Mrs Ng. Couldn't really find the other teachers. :( Ohh, I want ALL of them to teach me again!!!

Anyhoo, Mrs Goh told us that we should have called her cos she would be able to bring us in as her guests!! Gahhh, don't wanna tell us earlier! lol. Then we asked if she could bring us in for teachers' day, but she said we should talk to the people in charge for that one. She even suggested that we come up with some tribute for the teachers so that we are allowed in. We didn't even say yes; we only said it's a cool idea, and she ended up telling Mrs Ng(who walked by, and spilled water from her cup when she waved at us! haha) that we were going to come back to perform. And Mrs Ng immediately thought we gonna go and dance and sing or something. HAHA! OMG...I so won't la... Malu laaaaa...:P

Then after talking to the rest of the teachers, and telling them that the P looks like Andy Dick, we left to go eat la. Now I'm at McCafe waiting for Atika to come back from the toilet so we can watch PCD TV...hahahahah... Toodles!

*Seriously, I hated you so much for what you did to me this morning. You were a friggin hypocrite, a downright shameless liar... But in the end you managed to creep back into my heart... :-/ That can't be good. Pffft...*

Ladbrooke || 12:31 PM

Date : Thursday, August 7, 2008

How Many Times, How Many Lies? by Pussycat Dolls

Baby tried to tell me something
Oh, but I was hearing nothing
When they said you was just playing me
I didn't listen
I didn't want to
You couldn't find a blinder fool
I'm here
Searching through the wreckage
Wondering why the message never got through
And I found I mis-placed all my faith
How could I put my faith in you?

How many times?
How many lies?
How long you been sneaking?
How long you been creeping around?
How many lies?
How many times?
Were you here deceiving
While I was here believing in you

I got to put the blame on myself
Should've known with everyone else
Just knowing they knew you was just bad news
I should've walked out (I should've walked out)
I should've stayed clear (I should've stayed clear)
I'm glad your sad ass is out of here
I've gone and thrown out all the records
All the ones that ever reminded me of you
I've gone and tore up all the pictures
'Cause there was not one shred of truth

How many times?
How many lies?
How long you been sneaking?
How long you been creeping around?
How many lies?
How many times?
Were you here deceiving
While I was here believing in you

There were so many times
There were so many lies
I don't know why I stayed around
There were so many days
There were so many games
I should've thrown your sad ass out
Only the dumbest fool
Would ever trust in you
I've finally got wise
I opened up my eyes
Your game is over

I've gone and thrown out all the records
All the ones that ever reminded me of you
I've gone and tore up all the pictures
'Cause there was not one shred of truth

How many times?
How many lies?
How long you been sneaking?
How long you been creeping around?
How many lies?
How many times?
Were you here deceiving
While I was here believing in you

How many times?
How many lies?
How long you been sneaking?
How long you been creeping around?
How many lies?
How many times?
Were you here deceiving
While I was here believing in you

I opened up my eyes
Oh
Yeah

Yes, I'm still going nuts over Pussycat Dolls...:P And I swear, I'm in love with Nicole!!! :)

Ladbrooke || 8:14 PM

Date : Monday, August 4, 2008

Live The Dream, Babyyyy...

I can scratch "Watch Pussycat Dolls Live" off my wish list now! (but if they ever come here again for a concert, I'll still go! durhhh) Anyway, that hour of PCD was worth everything; climbing up those millions of steps, waiting hours for tickets, squeezed with a thousand smelly and sweaty people, the pain my feet are in from standing hours in high heeled boots and of course totally worth every cent!!! Nadh and I made our way to the very front of the stage before they performed, so we got a very good view of the performance. And somehow I know it happened (duh, I can't stop talking about it) but it still hasn't sunk in that I watched PCD live. It feels like it was all a dream. Oh gosh, and to think that I lived it! I'm as happy as can be right now! LALALALALALA...

Ashley was like a friggin Barbie doll, and she was really sweet, Melody was so darn adorable with her cutesy voice, Kimberly was so punk-rock sexy with those fishnet stockings(even though there was a hole in d front..hehe), Jessica was darn right hot, you should have seen the outfit she wore woots! And Nicole...O...M...G...Nicole was smokin gorgeous I tell ya!!!!!!! I'M IN LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!! :-P They sang eight songs; buttons, beep, i dont need a man, stick wit u, sway, wait a minute, when i grow up and don't cha... Nicole did her signature weird horse like neighing sound thrice! hahaha... Oh gosh, gosh, gosh... Yesterday was the best day of my life!!! *dies and goes to pussycat doll heaven*

Anyway, the rest of the show was good too especially One Republic and Jason Mraz. Rick Astley was strangely entertaining, and we didn't stay for Alicia Keys but I bet she was great. Hmm, Panic! didn't excite me at all, Stacie Orrico was nice, Jamie Scott was okay-okay la. Actually have a lot to update but all I can think about now is PCD...hahahahaha. Took some pictures but so d blur la, so might as well not post. I recorded the whole performance by PCD but the sound u can only hear demented monkeys cheering for them, and one of the demented monkeys is ME!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA....

Ladbrooke || 4:05 PM

Date : Saturday, August 2, 2008

I See Light!

There's hope yet, the remaining weekend passes will be sold at the gates on Sunday as day passes for $250. Nadhirah and I are confirmed going, but Faez and Atika still somewhat considering. OMG! I'm like soooooo elated la! *Jumps for joy all around the world*

Sighs, I just hope Atika and Faez will go too. We're tryna sneak them in if possible. Heh heh heh...

Anyway, starting on a story for this competition Ruth and I found out about. It's really interesting, but I doubt I can win la. My English now sucks real bad la! And since I just had my English test just now, I'm gonna suffer speech problems for a bit. Hahahah. Don't ask me why! I realized that it happens after every English test! HAHAHA. Weirdo me. But well, here's hoping for the best.

Of course, I will still be concentrating more on my studies than anything la. Next week I shall mug, mug, mug! Enjoy this weekend before the suffering comes!! :-S Oh well... I'd better get to sleep now, it's like 2am and I'm awake! That's so NOT me!!! HAHAHAHAHA....

Ladbrooke || 1:48 AM